All children are naturally born whole, happy, with crystal innner clarity. And liking themselves. Loving life and enjoying every detail. No matter how little.

But soon we learn from our caretakers how to perceive life: just like them.

And the most terrible dis-ease is passed on to us as well: to mistrust and doubt our inner core and inner guidence and take the other's ideas and feelings as our center. Even if they're incoherent or disagree between them - which often happens.

The inner conflicts we're left with drive us away from our source of energy: the person we really are or can become truly, Some of us don't even remeber or never got to know who that being is. And it's their inner being. So we become insecure and feel like hiding from other and our insides instead.

Since we don't flow with our stream of counsciousness anymore, our own true Self, we are like a fractured river. The word "rupture" in Greek is "trauma". It makes us weak and there goes our courage and vitality and zest for life we had as children.

With time if you don't listen to the compass that indicates who we were born to be, you can't know your path made of your genuine preferences and use your feelings as guiding feedback. We start to see them also as they were judged to be: pueril or unimportant or unjust or annoyingly getting in the way to some illusionary "success" envisaged for us. Often one we are not even naturaly endowed for. Instead of our allies our insides became our betrayers.

So our power to listen inside, to then express and negotiate to co-create outside, fades away. And we're left with a painful agitation and a body that goes nowhere. Have you seen a headless chicken? I used to run away from home when my grandma' was preparing lunch.

Because our true preferences and feelings were our inner compass, indicating to develop our true potential and talents and uniqness thus our purpuse and mission.

So outside our true potential and unable to pursue it, we get dissapointed in our Selves and perceive lack of Self value. Maybe our caretakers were right after all. How many times I head from my clients; "I am lazy" insead of "I am demotivated". Or "I am incapable" instead of "it's not my path" or "she was right to beat me when I was naughty" instead of "I was restless and frustrated as she never learnt to listen lovingly to both look for win-win situations". I used to believe I was useless with "two left hands" and "catastrofal". My childhood labels. But I was only a bit dislexic in my university professor dad's world that has never heard of it.

Which is so sad becuse the Self is priceless and the only connection with the divine there will ever be for each and every one of us.

Listening to our core is pure spiritual connection and what spirituality actually is. How else to "raise our vibration" or "incarnate" more and more of our Divine Self to be paradise on Earth as a human being, part of the whole Being. The rays of the sun are the sun when going deep into the source to shine it through any clouds. Not by conquering or anulling the other rays or trying not to be at all to deny life's natural challanges. That's not what being spiritual is. Yes, we can only find the sprit that we are inside, never on the outside.

And to celebrate me and my preferences that guide me into being is "the divine will" since the only being I will ever get to be for the whole is me. Not selfish as selfish people that want me as a continuation of themselves that serves them say.

But criticised from outside and inside now, we replace our inner being with social masks. To cope. They are good - they serve as protection from too much pain and nowhere to hide. But they are also false and walls that isolate us from it all and make us feel even more lonely and misunderstood as we drift astray even more apart from our own true selves. We smile to a neighbour we dont care about as we dont care about our Selves but our impossible mission that adds frustration and anger: we are desperately trying to convince ourselves and others that the mask is the actor. The stong woman. The couragesous man. The perfect husband. And other myths.

They are not the problem. just the symthom. The disconnection from our own true selves and how nuanced and complex and magic life can actualy be when we are spontaneous and listen to our own true self in every given momement, no matter how different from the reharsed role. Like the victim, the perpetrator and the saviour, our favorite play.

We receive conditioned love: but the energy that keeps us alive. So we feel we have to get instructions from the others on how to fulfill thier expectations of us. To survive. We are conditioned to renounce our center. We don't act from our own core and being anymore, left to react to theirs now: adopting or rejecting it.

If we adopt it we are filled with resentment. If we reject it they might give us a hard time.

Plus our caretakers look like they know what they're doing with our remote control as they tell us - not how to use it ourselves - but how they judge the value of our thoughts, feelings, words and behaviour against theirs. Our communication about ourselves gets treated as our communication about our environment and souroundings: just silly.

And we're too little and dependent and mindless to explain and protest. We can't see yet that they don't know how to use thier center well, or lost it a long time ago. It's impossible to choose to stay centered nevertheless because to ensure the survival of the human kind, we are conditioned to do whatever we can to continue to grow on thier energy supply, the only one available when small and in development still.

So we're ready to forget about ourselves to become according to their expectations to get their love, attention an dadmiration. Connection. Energy that keeps us alive. We are not tapped into the universe like they are. We're plugged into the faily of origin for energy supply when small. We absorb whatever mum and dad had to give. life wants it that way. it is our starting point in life as a soul,our initial software to improve in the adventure called life on Earth.

Not getting our needs met, we also start believing uncousncisously that we get what we deserve as our parents look like they know what they are doing and what's our worth.. Surely they would have given more has it been the case. Otherwise why did they bring us here if not to love and guide?

We get dis-empowered while our energy is not focused anymore. We try to be somebody else. But since we're not, we put on masks and our energy goes into those false projections, "false icons". And doing so we lead our lives away from who we really are.

The more we lose our center and self worth the more we get depressed. Whether we allow ourselves to feel it or not.

Because keeping up with the false pretence and lying to ourselves and consumes energy and once depleted, we never get to tap into our own real potential and talents that could buld the only path that can get thrilling and make us happy. Our only possible expansion re-united with our better more counscious more powerful version of ourselves.

We don't have acces to quality energy anymore becuase we can only be spiritual, meaning our own individual spirit, through our own true selves. Not something outside of ourselves. That life, that tailored spiritual path "back to God", becoming the divine is somebody elses's, it's already taken. We will never be a better, more divine version of ourselves through another. That's somebody elses experience and journey. We need to go back full on to to ours that starts from our unique point of view inthe mind of God, form our here and now, our "cross".

I dont think the spiritual language was well understood - I think we can only get it now as our science and minds are more refined. The mind can help as a brilliant executive not as our master. That's why we had mantras and guided meditations - to put it to work for us to expand and allow for the divine. mantras rise the vibration, the mind can link us to our higher vibrational self. That's all religion ever meant: re-legare.

So we go through life asking of ourselves something we would never pretend from an electrical device: to function without being plugged in a real energy source. , which leads us away form who we really are, our Selves.

Soon in our lives our caretakers claim that they know what's best for us, not always admiting, and often not even to themselves, that it is actually what would be best for them. Or easier. Or just according to how their plans go, faithful to their own ideas and filters re who we should be or are.

But even if ideally your parents have tryed to understand and love you, even if they were above the general spiritual ignorance regarding the Self and it's need to be recognised and respected in it's uniqueness, theystill can't really lead you towards YOUR own true Self.

For a very simple truth: none of them is you. None of them feels in their heart what only you can feel in your heart: your dreams, aspirations, your potential and latent talents. And who you were born to be and what you came to do. Without this information though and without courgae and inner power your life is empty and only leads to unhappiness.

But where does it all go terribly wrong?

We become conditioned to ignore or refuse our inner world and inner guiding systems - that most of us don't even acknoledge having - most humans got disconnected from their true nature from an early age, But this also means from our spontaneous natural spirituality that kept us connected and aware, happy for no reason at all.

We all feel what all babies radiate: "content to be me", "happy to ceebrate me", "contemplating while breathing deeply, calmly, naturally, easy", "serene while expressing me existing as well ". Without asking for permission to be who they are or feeling guilty or lack. Something most of us lost since. But there was no other choice. We had to fit in and belong to stay alive.

And since we are born without the instructions manual, this unfortunately meant something even more tangible: we also got disconnected from our own true Self, the being that we were born to be. So now our negative symtoms are telling us the truth: wihtout our own true Self perception, we're powerd off!

Which plungged us into unnecessary suffering.

Unnecessary because it's not the natural feedback we need while exploring the creation (like "oops, fire burns" or "if we build a house like this it will fall on us"). Nor is it natural feedback for our own evolution like when I reveal my own uniqueness, even to myself initially, and I have to leave behind the past, as I explore what am I capable of.

But it is the unneccesary suffering created simply by our ignorance regarding our own nature and how we function.